bulldog47

bulldog47 @ 2008-07-02T14:47:00

2008-07-02T19:16:36Z

Well, it happened again! That other shoe came crashing down on my head! And the bugger was filled with cement! That promotion that
I recieved was well, retracted so to speak! I was in formed today by the higher up that hired me for the promotion,that proper protocol was not used when I was awarded this promotion! Which means simply stated, that someone with more seniority complained that
I shouldn't get this promotion because I was with the company too short of time to let this happen! Now while I agree with this thinking,
I'm pissed off at management for allowing this to happen at all! Here I'm thinking wow! A promotion that fast? And in a place closer to home too! This is great! When something good happens to me, I don't ask questions! So I just took the position and and reported when I was supposed to! So now I have a choice, I can go elsewhere and retain the promotion. Or I can stay where I am and remain at my former salary and title! Because its closer to home and doesn't reqire too much of a commute, I may just choose to stay put. In any case
the point is that anytime something like this happens to me it always blows up in my face! I met a new co-worker today when I reported for work this A.M. Or should I say I was her victim! This windbag of a witch was named Kathy and I said good morning when I saw her.
Soulda been allright from there right? WRONG!!! From the get-go this person,(and I use that term loosly) was rude,crude, mean,
miserable, cranky,snotty,and obnoxious! But she was unpleasant! Get the picture? Feeling like I had just murdered her entire family,
I asked if I had done anything to upset or insult her. She said no and continued to hurang me with rude comment after rude comment
about my mistakes! After awhile I'd decided to just go about my job and ignore this unpleasant B***H! I asked the house manager if
perchance this woman was upset about me being there, and she said no! Not at all! So? Whats the problem I said? This is how it was explained to me she said. Thats how Kathy is with everyone! Really? And this is acceptable to staff and management? Not really. She said but, she is especially obnoxious and short with new staff! Oh really?I said. My first instinct boys and girls was to confront her and take her down a few pegs! But since were supposed to be working in a nurturing environment, thats not an option!
So I decided since I only have to bear her crap an hour three days a week, I'd just ignore her or if an answer is required, cut her short!
Best thing I can do for my jobs sake! Wish me luck boys and girls, I'm gonna need it!! GOD BLESS!!

Writer's Block: Caring

2008-07-02T18:45:36Z

Who do you care about most in your life?

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Without hesitation,I'd have to say my Beautiful Wife and my three Wonderful children!

Writer's Block: Awesome Openers

2008-06-30T22:39:38Z

What are some gripping opening lines from films or books, and why do you think they work so well?

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Well, I'm kinda partial to the opening line from Goodfellas," Ever since I can remember, I wanted to be a wiseguy"

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-29T02:26:00

2008-06-29T06:41:35Z

Last night in this part of my job! Tomorrow I'll be off and then Monday morning I'll start in my new supervisory
position. I'm very excited about this as I have never been promoted on any job! My only hope is that I can do
a satisfactory job. Because the company I work for at the present is more than likely the last job I'll ever have!
I'm getting too old to keep switching jobs anymore! Not that I'm elderly mind you, just that all this job hunting and switching around is kind of grating on my nerves. My real dream and desire is to be an actor. I did have the experience once or twice, nothing major mind you, just extra work. And a b-movie that was only shown
in Europe and the U.K. But wouldn't it be great to be in front of the camera entertaining folks! God! It would be
more than great, IT WOULD BE AWESOME!!! Ah well, its still nice to dream! But as someone wiser than I once
said; you can wish in one hand, and poop in the other, and see which one fills up first! Hope everyones week
is goin good! All My Love And Respect To All My Lj Friends! And GOD BLESS YOU AND YOURS!!

PROMOTED!!

2008-06-27T03:28:59Z

Well, I got the word today. I have been promoted! I will also be working closer to home so, gas won't be that much of a problem! Neither will wear and tear on our vehicle! Only trouble now is getting used to going in at 5:30 instead of getting ready to return home at that point. Which I do now. I got an invitation to My cousin's
son's wedding in Aug. which we more than likely won't attend. Not because we don't want to you understand,
we just can't afford to! Firstly, I'm not sure that my car will get to Conn. without a problem, second we don't have clothing good enough for a wedding, third we probably couldn't get the time off to go! We've just gotten our bills on an even keel and I'd like to keep it that way! If that means sacrificing a chance to see my folks and some relatives we haven't seen in years, so be it! I'm kinda sad about this but, what can a person do? This is
how life is! I guess the bad always goes with the good! In any case, things are going much better for us so,
I'm very grateful! Well thats all for now folks! Hope the rest of everyone's week goes well! GOD BLESS!!

Allergies!! ARRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!

2008-06-26T03:26:34Z

My damned allergies are kicking in again! I woke up with a full blown attack this morning and it hasn't stopped
since! I managed to get some Loratadine at Wal-mart so hopefully after a few doses, it'll clear up. In any case
my transfer is looking pretty good at this point. So I may be back on a day shift very soon. Nothin else to really say except that my prayers are with my very wonderful friend Forgetfulness! And I'm glad that you are feeling better! GOD BLESS!!

Writer's Block: Choose a Power

2008-06-25T18:00:17Z

If you could have the power to fly, be invisible, or teleport anywhere, which would you choose?

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If I had the power to teleport I would definitely go to see my Mom in Florida more often. I also would visit my cousins in S.I., and my father-in-law in S.C. If I could fly, oh man! The possibilities would be endless! Commuting to work would be a breeze! I wouldn't have to worry about speeding tickets or traffic either! And if I were able to turn invisible, well, lets just say some banks would be light a few million!

Rest In Peace George Carlin

2008-06-24T22:13:11Z

I know I'm a little late posting this but, here goes. I heard just yesterday of the death of the funniest man of all time, George Carlin.
I know he was quite a bit offensive to quite a few folks but, as offensive as he was to them, thats how funny he was to me. He lived by
the creedo, always state your opinion! And his opinion showed in everything he did! He was the most outspoken man to come along in a very long time! I do believe in God. And I do believe in my friends feelings. So, because of those reasons I won't post some of the more offensive stuff he said. (Offensive that is to some of you)! He was a pioneer! A man who did what he wanted and proved it by saying what he wanted! He made me laugh on many occasions and at times when I felt my worst emotionally. He was by far my very favorite comedian and I often quote him in life. I didn't always agree with some of his opinions but I always found them funny. He was loved and admired by many common folk who found it wonderful that he was so opinionated! I have always found quite a lot of what he
has said about people and life in general to be true. He was always the funniest man on the planet to me and always will be. I will miss
him terribly! My love and deepest sympathy go out to his family,especially his dear daughter Kelly who stood by him her whole life.
Your with Brenda now bud! GOODBYE, GOD BLESS, FAREWELL!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-22T13:02:00

2008-06-22T17:29:05Z

Well, another week is down. And we are still here, pluggin along. It seems that we will have a visitor for the summer. My wife's niece,
will be staying with us for the entire summer. Reason being that where she was staying before, (a relative) has become inconvinient
for her to stay. Her Mom went crackers awhile back and accused her Dad, (my brother-in-law) of cruelty toward Her. They essentially were offered to stay at another brother-in-law's home but, all that changed because of his miserable wife. Now I say this in all predudice because I've had to deal with this woman for 29 years! My wife and I met in 1979 and this woman has done nothing but look down her irish, catholic, working class nose at me. She has been mostly mean and miserable to me my entire existence in my wife's family. I love my wife with all my heart and soul. Thats why I put up with that woman's nonsense! Having moved far away from them
awhile back has been a blessing in the fact that we don't see them. That ensures I can keep on being a gentleman. This woman has
set new standards in being mean toward folks and, then has the nerve to hide behind religion to justify acting this way! Thats right!
She acts all religous and stuff but does things that are far from what the lord requires of her,I'm sure. Now I'm not particularly fond of the brother-in-law that is bringing his daughter here but, far be it for me to compound anyone's troubles. I have been figureatively spat upon by all three of my brothers-in law for years and have come to live with it.I've been accused of being a liar, a cheat, disrespectful
toward their parents, and the best one yet, being a low life! I admit, I'm not the brightest bulb in the box but, I've always tried to be a good person. I have tried for many,many, years to gain their trust and friendship but, to no avail. And yes, the fact that I still mention it
means it still bothers me in a sense. But my wife adores me and thats all that matters! Its a very hard task to forgive and forget how badly people have been hurtful but, it is attainable. Well I gotta go now, later! GOD BLESS!!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-19T22:58:00

2008-06-20T03:11:22Z

Well, it looks like I'm going to be transfered. The position I am in right now is being turned into a part time position. And in order for me to retain my full time job, I have to transfer out to another place. Which is kind of
a blessing in disguise, because I'll be cutting 15 miles off my commute. In any case, I had to go there this am
after working here all night, to get accustomed to the way things run there. The only difficult part will be changing from a night shift to a day shift. But, you go where the work sends you. And since I wasn't born rich
and have not recently become independently wealthy, this is the only option. Its a decent place and I've met
the residents before as well. So I'm not totally in the dark about it. Well, thats all for now. GOD BLESS!!

Writer's Block: We met on LJ

2008-06-20T02:58:39Z

Who did you meet on LiveJournal you wouldn't have met otherwise?

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I have met and made some very wonderful friends on Lj. Quite a few stand out but, one in particular won my heart straight off. She goes by the name of Forgetfulness and is the most kind, sweet and just all around
the most loving person outside of my family I've ever met! And I've only met her on line! Her generosity toward me, a total stranger to her is something that will stay with me the rest of my life! I hope to someday bring my family to meet Hers.

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-19T00:42:00

2008-06-19T05:08:33Z

Everything is going better than it was, our bills are on an even keel, everyone is healthy. So why in God's
name am I STILL depressed???? I wish I knew! Or maybe I do. I'm scared. I'm scared that something will go wrong! Because thats the way it has happened in the past. The very recent past! Don't get me wrong! I am grateful that things are finally going well. But the nightmare keeps haunting me! I keep wondering when the other shoe will drop! I don't wanna think this way, but seeing as thats the way its been going, can you blame me? God I miss childhood! I used to think that I had it soooo rough as a kid! Man! I didn't know how good I had it! But back to the point. I wish I could shake this fear! Its really messing me up! I don't know anymore! I gotta
try and figure out whats bothering me! At least before I start hearing voices that tell me to harm myself! Oh
please don't any of my friends get in a tizzy! I'll be alright! I was just saying! I've got to leave work early tomorrow
to make the transition to another residence (for work that is). Later guys! And remember if anyone needs to talk, bulldog is listening! MAY GODS PROTECTION AND LOVE SURROUND YOU AND YOURS ALWAYS!!

Writer's Block: My Userpics

2008-06-18T11:11:12Z

What was your first LiveJournal usericon and why? Why did you select your current default userpic?

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My first icon was a photo of myself,because I thought it would be nice for people to see what I looked like. However, I ended up changing
my Lj name and icon because I was getting harassed by some moron who knew me. And for some inexplicable reason had a hardon
for me!

Writer's Block: AAAGH!

2008-06-16T11:30:12Z

What is your worst nightmare?

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My worst nightmare would definitely be one of my kids getting seriously hurt or killed.

Social Services To The Rescue!

2008-06-15T02:22:06Z

Many thanks to a wonderful lady by the name of Jane. She works for social services and helped me out quite
a bit. Our electric is back on thanks to her! It went on today at about 12 noon. So we are back in the 21st
century. While I had to travel about 40 miles to get to the social services office, I didn't mind. It would have been worth a 100 mile trip. While I was up there, my gas tank started to fall out of the car completely! So I
gingerly coasted the car to a local body shop (suggested by Jane), the guy fixed the problem and sold me two
used and nicely preserved tires as well. All for about 100 dollars! Not bad!! So things are beginning to turn around for us! I'm still leary though. But I will be humble. As God wants me to be. Later Guys!
MAY THE LOVE OF GOD AND HIS MERCIFUL GOODNESS SURROUND YOU AND YOUS ALWAYS!!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-14T00:23:00

2008-06-14T04:45:31Z

So when I spoke to a rep from National Grid last week I was told it would take $1,239. to get the electric reinstated. So when I called today I naturally assumed this would be true. But after talking to a representative
(a different one than last week), and went over a financial statement, we make less then we pay out every month. Which is a National Grid no-no! So now they want $4000. to reinstate our service. So instead I paid the phone bill and got it turned back on. I made some phone calls when I got home, and ended up traveling
about 40 miles to see this person who would help me. After seeing this person, my car started making a scraping noise when I started driving. And viola! My gas tank was falling out! So I limped the car to the nearest
garage to get it fixed. After a quick and thorough fix, the guy suggested I replace the rear tires. He had a couple of used tires that looked good to me so I said go ahead! The whole thing cost about $100. I was extremely
grateful! Although it took most of the afternoon and encroached upon my rest time. But what the hey, the good
with the bad, right? So I was wrong. It took awhile but I'm ashamed to say I didn't think I was on God's to do list. But, I still can't help wondering if the other shoe is waiting to drop... ON MY HEAD!! Maybe I'm a little too
skeptical,I don't know. We shall see. Till next time, Love bulldog!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-13T03:21:00

2008-06-13T07:41:04Z

Well, it is entirely possible our lights may be back on by this time on Saturday. The junkyard came by today and picked up the last of our cars hopefully putting us in a position to get the electric back on by the weekend.
That is if my paycheck tomorrow covers it. But there still is the possibility that the phone won't be paid. Ahhh
well! If only I'd have been born rich instead of good lookin! Been a quiet week so far, i'm just praying and hoping that the proverbial other shoe doesn't drop! Just have to keep the faith in our Lord. I've been saying alot
lately that God has forsaken us and our problems. I truly didn't mean that! I just meant that I'm frustrated with the way things have been with our family! Not only with paying our bills but, with personal problems as well.
I don't know what else to say except that I apologize dear Jesus! Please forgive me! I also apologize to all the good folks who read my journal entries on LJ, that I have offended. My son has taken a job selling knives and
although I'm grateful for the help He wants to provide us with, I'm skeptical of any sales job! However He wants to make a go of it and says he gets paid just for showing up at folks homes. Lotsa luck son! And thank you my boy for all your sacrifice! All my love to you son! And all my love and thanks to my other son and daughter for putting up with all the crap thats been happening to us! I love you all!! VERY MUCH!!! Well, thats all for now folks! Have a good day and may the love of Jesus and his protection surround you all!!

G-O-D B-L-E-S-S!!!!

Not That I Believe I Need To But...

2008-06-12T06:15:36Z

I rant here because I feel I need to unload. Not necessarily to offend anyone or their sense of right or wrong!
I do admit that a good part of what has happened to me as of late is my own fault. Yes I have made mistakes.
But another part of the reason I'm in the current situation I am is because my chief priority is to keep a roof over my families head! Even if it means that has to happen in the dark and, without a telephone! You see we live in a very small town where there are no traffic lights, very few working pay phones, far removed from most
places of business, IE: stores, employers,etc. We moved here a few years ago from NYC to have a better life.
We never expected to encounter the hardships we have. To explain, now that we have taken over the mortgage
on the family owned property we live in,we have discovered quite a lot of repairs that need to be made to it.
Selling and moving is not an option for us,seeing as the house would never fetch the price that would be
necessary to relocate because of the shape it is in! Now as much as we would like to, our budget just barely
pays our bills! As my previous rants have stated. So we are stuck. We are in an American nightmare. Wanting
and needing our fair share of the American dream but finding something very different. I do not feel like I need
anyone's approval to rant here nor explain myself to those who don't understand why I rant. I have worked my tail off and gotten little or no relief. If I happen to feel or state that I believe God has forsaken or disappointed
me, I do ask for forgiveness! But not from any of you who believe me to be a rotten person who has crooked or
misguided priorities! I apologize and ask forgiveness from God and God only! I do not enjoy blocking folks from commenting on my rants! But when I receive a comment like I did a few days ago I get upset. Maybe I
deserved it because I didn't explain myself properly. I don't know. But I sure didn't mean to offend anyone!
So I apologize to you dear Father, and ask for your forgiveness.

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-07T00:38:00

2008-06-07T05:04:34Z

Just to clarify. I do post from work but am not in trouble for it. #1, I go to work nightly to support my family.
#2, God does know whats in my heart and how I feel. #3 People who criticize my feelings like a certain person
(who is now blocked) have not been in my shoes. #4, I do not steal, cheat, or lie! #5 I do not physically hurt
people. My troubles in some respects are my own fault, I know that. I have prayed and prayed but the troubles
just keep,on coming! Also I thought that Christians were supposed to be non-judgemental! How do you think God would feel about what you said (and you know who you are). Do really think that because I complain about my problems and how slow God is to help me, this is your opportunity to criticize? Maybe I am wrong
to say that God is too slow to help. But, thats for God to decide. NOT YOU!!!! And as far as my priorities go,
I support my family the best way I can! I do not gamble or spend frivilously, I do not cheat on my spouse, nor
do I mistreat my children! My chief priority is to keep a roof over my kids heads! Maybe I have made my bed.
And I am lying in it! But complaining is every mans God given right!!! And not YOUR cue to tell me where or how I've gone wrong! God does know what is in my heart! And I've already felt His forgiveness for my words!
So now that I've said all that whether it makes sense or not, let me ask you a question sir, ARE YOU A PERFECT SINLESS HUMAN BEING?? Only you can answer that! You really need to examine yourself before
you judge me too harshly! GOD BLESS YOU SIR!! You sure need it!!

Gilligan's Island

2008-06-06T02:51:17Z

Well, we are now officially castaways on Gilligans Island. Having no electricity is the biggest inconvenience-
ever for us. Hopefully it won't have to be for more than a week before we can clear this up and get back to the 21st century. Don't know what else to say except that we are muddling thru. As this is no different from the norm! I just hope that we can sell the cars we have for scrap so we can pay off this damn electric bill! Because that along with my WHOLE paycheck, is what will do it for us! If we can't I'm not sure what we'll do! As it stands now, we will lose all phone service (including incoming calls) by next Fri. Simply because we can't pay both!
Stay tuned kiddies! GOD BLESS!!!
P.S. I'm posting from work again so no one thinks I'm full of bunk!

Writer's Block: Funniest Thing Ever.

2008-06-05T04:04:12Z

Out of all the funny things that have ever happened to you, which experience still cracks you up?

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The thing that always cracks me up was the time that My Wife and I were having lunch in a local pizza parlor.
As a woman in the next booth leaned behind the counter to retrieve some napkins I commented that she must know the owner and thats how she would have the nerve to do that. My wife thought I said she must be drunk on coronas. (Which is a beer). It didn't stop there. After we had a good laugh about it on the way home, we were due at My Mom's house for dinner. When I mentioned this story, Mom thought I meant
corona cigars and said thats a typewriter isn't it? Don't they call it smith corona? My brother said no Mom
thats different! We all had a great laugh during dinner and some of us nearly choked on our food!
To this day it still cracks me up!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-04T23:15:00

2008-06-05T03:54:41Z

Well, it has finally happened! The lights have been shut off! About 10:39 this morning National Grid showed up
and shut down our electric power. With no 72 hr.notice (which is required in most states), or even so much as
a courtesy knock on the door! So now we have no power and can't make any out going calls! The latter will get
worse in exactly 8 days when they suspend our incoming calls as well. Maybe these things are trivial to some of you out there but, to me they are a disaster! And extremely important! I know full well that things could be worse, someone we love or one of us could be sick,dying, or extremely injured. But, to me this is bad. You see
I've always been able to provide for my family. And now I feel like I've let them down. You see, we have no power so, that means no conveniences. No computer, no dvd, no cooking, no hot water, NO NOTHING!!! So what do we do now? Good question. Well, we have 3 vehicles on our property and we can sell them for scrap.
But, that will net us about $600. and we need about $1,500. Between the electric and phone. If we can get the cars picked up, we will still have to be without electricity until a week from this Friday! Because thats when I get paid next! We have a grill to cook with, but were going to have to keep milk and stuff in a cooler until then. And on top of all this, this piece of junk car needs work as well! And it can't wait too much longer! I'm trying very hard to understand why God has forsaken us on this! I don't ask for riches (monetarily that is),or fancy cars,
or even to be able to travel to France! I just want to be able to work and live! Thats all! Why is this so hard to attain? Why has God taken my bird and my bush? What have I done? When will all this misery end? God, I'm tired! PLEASE!!! HELP ME!!! Later guys!! AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-03T16:43:00

2008-06-03T21:04:14Z

How to begin... Oh! Yeah! Now I remember! Now to add to my grief . The damn phone company who after recieveing $573. from us, decided to demand $191. more from us! When I asked for a breakdown of the bill, they said they would be more than happy to provide us with one! But they failed to mention that they would be shutting off the service 10 days later! And on top of it, never sent us the copy we so politely asked for! Am I frustrated? Oh,you bet I am! I'm so frustrated that I'm glad I don't own a gun! Hows that for frustrated? I've had it! Its to the point that if I don't keel over,I'll probably do something stupid! I wish we could just sell this dump and move the hell out of here! I just wanted a better life for my family! Thats all! Nothing more! This is a nice place to live but, in the almost 5 years we've lived here, its just been a total disaster! I mean nothing has gone right for us! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! And like I've stated in the last few days,I fully expect the electric to be shut off any time now! God I hate it here! I used to love this town but, with all the bad thats happened to us I find it hard to like it anymore! But we can't leave! Were stuck in this go 14 miles to the nearest store, employers pay crappy,
we only employ locals,pea brained, narrow minded, small town hell! I gotta figure out what to do because prayer isn't working and it sure seems to me like God has forsaken us and our problems! Stay tuned kiddies!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-02T10:09:00

2008-06-02T14:39:12Z

Well boys and girls, I have a feeling today may be the day. We may be sans electricity. We can't pay the 1300. they want and we've exhausted our heap benefits. So were lighting on borrowed time! You might say. We've been trying to sell the vehicles we have here,
that don't or won't run anymore. We've also tried to sell them for scrap metal. One place said he'd pick them up and give us $500. for the
pair. Now that my son has offered to scrap his van as well, it may be more. I don't know. I don't usually beg, but if anyone has any ideas or can help, I'd appreciate it. If you comment and don't hear from me right away, you know what happened. This is pathetic. I've always been quite able to care and provide for my family. But this time its hopeless. Were rushing around here,trying to do all the dirty laundry we can and taking hot showers everyday,sometimes twice a day. Because if the power is shut down that means no hot water for showers or laundry. Our food will go bad and we won't be able to cook. We'll have to depend on our gas grill and who knows how long that will last? Is there a miracle in our future? Only God knows. I haven't been to church because it requires extra effort to walk there and
I've been so damn drained of energy that it may never return to me. I've been feeling the occasional chest pain and it goes away quite fast. I have headaches and stomach pains constantly. I can't live like this anymore. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to die! But this crap is killing me! I work my tail off and,it never seems to help! NEVER!!!! I love my family more than life itself! Thats why I stick around. But its real hard! If I were alone, who knows? I might take the cowards way out if I were alone. But I'm not. So here I am. A desperate, pathetic little dweeb! ROCK "me" HARDPLACE!

Sidenote to temalyn: if you read this,please ask Jess not to mention anything to Maryann. Thanks!

bulldog47 @ 2008-06-01T00:07:00

2008-06-01T04:29:15Z

Once again the rancid smell of terrible luck has invaded my attempts to be comfortable in life! Now there is something wrong with my damned car! AGAIN!!! I seriously expected the car to be trouble free for awhile!
SILLY ME!!! I heard a scraping when I arrived home yesterday morning, and when I knelt down to see what it
was, I discovered that a metal band that holds one end of the gas tank up had broken and was scraping the pavement. Now although it looks as if it'll hold for a time, I have a feeling time will be short. Now if money wasn't in such short supply, this wouldn't be a problem. But ,seeing as every stinking penny is budgeted or
earmarked for something, coupled with the fact that were a one car family well, you see where I'm headed
with this. Sometimes I wonder if God has me on his bad list. It sure seems like he refuses to answer me!
I pray,I beg,I plead with him but to no avail! I don't know anymore. They say God never gives you more than
you can handle and that which does not kill you makes you stronger. If this is the case than I can probably
handle more than any person alive today and, I should be able to juggle tractor-trailers like rubber balls!
I lost quite a lot of much needed sleep today, trying to make a temporary repair on this stupid car! Oh man!!
I'm gettin too old for this nonsense!! Anyway,thanks for reading my rant. Gotta go. C YA GUYS!!